February 2012
My life is changing so fast and I can’t keep up. Time is moving too fast and I don’t know what’s happening. But everything’s changing, and I’m changing. And I can’t even control any of it. I don’t think it’s hit me yet how scary this could be.
I just want to make you mac n cheese and then we can eat it with our hands and smear it on each other’s faces.
Because that’s what we’re like. And we would be perfect together. And you know that.
I fucking miss you so much it’s unbearable.. and I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I’m lost without you here. I can’t think, I can’t work, I...
1 tag
“You should just say I KNOW YOU LIKE ME SO KISS ME ALREADY!” “Hahaha nope. I’m gonna let him decide. I just want him to feel safe around me, that he doesn’t need to be anyone but himself.” “I think he realizes he can be that way with you already :)” “Yeah, I like him when he’s just with me. He’s different :)”
Take me to karaoke with you. And eat fast food with me. And correct my Chinese. And I’ll tell you stories about my fucked up life. But you have to tell me yours too. And forget about the world with me.
You are so scared to admit that you like me. You’re afraid to let me in. You’re afraid to be close to me.
Stop.
Stop it.
You can trust me. Look at me. Really look at me. And hold my hand. But really hold my hand. Hold my hand as your insecurities disappear.
“You brought a dynamic to our group unlike anyone else before.”
“He’s a game changer.”
“Give me eye contact.”
“You’re fucking crazy and you don’t even believe it.”
And I don’t ever feel lonely.
All I wanted was to see you last night, for a glimpse. I cried because I couldn’t. Because I…….adore you so much. And I just sat there and cried, and I don’t do that. I..don’t miss boys. I don’t like them. I don’t…wait until I’m reunited with them again.
And it scares me, but it doesn’t.
Let me be in...
1 tag
And I miss you.
And yesterday I thought of you and cried because I missed you. Most boys bore me and can’t keep my attention. But you’re different. You’re different.
And I have never felt this way before. But I now know… I know. 2012 has been way too easy, and you are my test. You are my test.
My whole life, I’ve been scared to be with someone, scared to take...
so i met a guy last night and he wants to take me to a giants game
whhhhhyyy klsdjfkldsfjklf gah
I really hate how I can’t concentrate on my studying because I’m thinking of you and the next time I’ll see you.
sdfkdsflkdsjfskdj uhhggggggggg
“I think..you’ve changed all of them..they are all better people because of you.”
This blanket reminds me of you. This song reminds me of you. I miss your hands. I miss your eyes. And I miss being next to you. I just want to hug you. Because that’s all I need.
I’m not sure you understand how much I like you. I’m not sure why I like you. But I do. And I do so so so much and I can’t stop missing you.
I hope we can always cuddle. I hope I can change...
1 tag
Yesterday night, I realized with my best friend that we have the capability to change each other’s lives. That we have. Together.
And it is the beginning of everything.
The power to change a person in a moment is so extraordinary, so precious, so rare, and so indescribable. It’s hard to believe that you’re 20 and that you are capable of such power. Of such healing. And now...
“He’s so..crazy..I wouldn’t be able to keep up with him.” “I think he wouldn’t be able to keep up with you.”
1 tag
is facebook poking a form of flirting or something..
1 tag
I always hate reality after raves. Because the atmosphere of a rave is what I’ve imagined my whole life. A world that the second you walk into, your spirit feels free. You become that freedom you’ve searched for your whole life.
I wish and I wish. I wish too much. I wish for too many unrealistic aspects of life. I wish that everyone could love each other. I wish that everyone would...
all i have ever dreamt about these past few days is having a cute boy to cuddle with
i just want a boy who read me bedtime stories and love me even when im grumpy and my hair is a mess
1 tag
“I feel as if I want to tell him my entire past but I don’t need to because he knows me already as this, as I am now, and it doesn’t matter how I got to be me.”
Everyone should live by this. Even me. I miss this girl so much.
1 tag
“I’ll take you on adventures.” “Will you catch me if I fall?” “Always.” “What about mentally?” “I’m your superman, remember?”
I’m such a romantic. It’s scary. I always surprise myself.
I hate how you make me grumpy. I hate how I was so grumpy at you and I threw a water bottle at your face and you just laughed. I...
1 tag
“I care about you. It’s just so easy to care about you cause you have such an amazing personality. I feel connected now to you in a way that is unspeakable and I look forward to each time I get to see you.”
1 tag
1 tag
Saturday night, well I guess, Sunday morning, one of my friends was taking shrooms for the first time. She is one of the most outgoing and cheerful people I know, and yet she is very closed with her emotions. However, for having seen me only two times before Saturday, she told me that she trusted me and that she felt closer to me than most people she had known for years. She had been on shrooms...
Anonymous asked: I've spent a few hours on your blog. Love it! Very genuine and inspiring! And I can relate to most of the thing you said about you and boys, you're not alone, we just gotta be patient, love is on the way!! Lola.
