This is a list of goals I made while I was in China.
I compile lists, because that’s what my personality is consisted of.
August 11 - September 19: 1. Do summer homework, of course. 2. Splurge at Borders … but don’t buy too many books. 3. Hang out with EVERYBODY before they leave for college. 4. Do yoga 2-3 times a week. 5. Go on walks after dinner. 6. Work 30 hours a week … and if not possible, at least 20. 7. Try to have a semi-eventful birthday. 8. Don’t drive too much. 9. Try to read 2 books due to the summer homework I have. 10. Try and pack my whole life into three suitcases.
… Extra goals. I’m too anal about schedules.
September 19 (when I move into dorms) - September 24: 1. Hang out wiff Katherine! 2. ..Try to unload all my clothes into a teeny tiny closet. 3. Meet people everywhere and introduce myself 24/7 (: 4. Go into the city (Jamba Juice, Borders, and Urban Outfitters, mostly). 5. Go to the ocean. 6. Be familiar with the campus and where my classes are, ah! 7. Know the bus schedule! 8. Introduce myself to the professors. 9. Go to Slugfest and the Boardwalk. 10. Figure out where the local grocery store is and when the Farmer’s Market is!
I truly believe that beauty is everywhere, within the cracks of the wall to the painting displayed in the gallery. I believe beauty can be found in every thing, every person, and every place - it’s just beauty can be flaunted in various styles.
CAPTUREfireflies: it’s like this crazy attachment that i can’t get away from. CAPTUREfireflies: i don’t want that CAPTUREfireflies: i want to fall in love. CAPTUREfireflies: i want you to have a great time in college. CAPTUREfireflies: i want us to meet. CAPTUREfireflies: i want everything to be different.
YOURE infinitee: like one day. YOURE infinitee: I made a heart with my hands. YOURE infinitee: and he grabbed my hand, because he wasnt paying attention. YOURE infinitee: and i was like. YOURE infinitee: O: YOU BROKE IT. YOURE infinitee: and i redid it. YOURE infinitee: and he took one of my hands again. YOURE infinitee: and put it to his heart. YOURE infinitee: then he took my other hand. YOURE infinitee: and put it to mine. YOURE infinitee: and said. YOURE infinitee: “Now we can both have it.”
YOURE infinitee: Wanna hear something lame? xLUCIEEomfgzz: yes. YOURE infinitee: Everytime I turn off the lights. YOURE infinitee: I say something like. YOURE infinitee: I love you _____. YOURE infinitee: or. YOURE infinitee: I miss you _____. YOURE infinitee: or. YOURE infinitee: I hope you have sweet dreams _____. YOURE infinitee: I just say it outloud.
YOURE infinitee: or like. YOURE infinitee: how you can. YOURE infinitee: be telling someone. YOURE infinitee: you love them. YOURE infinitee: and will never leave them. YOURE infinitee: and never hurt them. YOURE infinitee: and the next. YOURE infinitee: you don’t even talk. YOURE infinitee: you don’t even care.
Me:I was thinking if worst came to worst, I'd just wear all my necklaces at once, and wear all my knit hats at once, and wear tights under my leggings under my pants and legwarmers over. Gives me more room in my suitcase :D
Katherine:And you will be very warm.
Me:I prefer cozy.
Katherine:Hahaha cozy is the more more politically correct term.
Me:And then I stretch my arms and there's a loud noise because I'll be wearing a thousand bracelets. Actually I have like 3, but just to make myself look a LITTLE bit more bizarre.
Katherine:lmao you will be quite a show when you get on campus. Everyone weill whisper how cool you are, because that would be so cool at sc.
Me:LMFAO I know. I'll set trendz. I'll even wear legwarmers on my arms to save space and hang like 6 belts....I can imagine myself now... . . .
Katherine:I am choking on the ravioli I just put in my mouth from laughing.
Katherine:You want me to die from choking don't you! it's been your plan all along!
Me:I've been building up this plan for 6 years now. I'm so glad it's finally taking place.
Katherine:"Girl dies in Orinda, CA from choking on ravioli while texting bff Lucie Zhang"
Katherine:"I just am disturbed by the idea of stars dying in general. I can't even explain it. It's just something so . . . huge."
Me:"I know. And we don't even know about it because there's so many in the sky. It's kind of like waking up and the sky isn't there anymore."
"Yeah. Or like . . . knowing that a little piece of it isn't there anymore, and that little thing is so much bigger than anything you can imagine."
"Yeah, and it serves so much purpose that we don't even know about, but we just love them because they are so beautiful."
"Yes! It's just such a massive thing to think about and it's weird comprehending it all at once."
"That even when we look up to the sky, they won't live forever. And we won't know the difference because there are billions of stars out there. Up until you mentioned dying stars, I never really consciously think about it. I think about the sun, because it’s so substantial, and the fact that it won’t live forever scares me, even if I won’t be there to see it happen. It’s like a sense of security actually – knowing the stars are there everynight.”
"Yeah. And you just feel so insecure if you think that they aren't all there . . . that they are constantly dying and being reborn."