September 2009
August 2009
Erm.
Lucie
YAY
im so happy
smallville was supposed to end season 8
which was this year
like it was FINAL
and when i found out
i started crying in my room
"OMFG WHAT AM I GOIGN TO DO IN COLLEGE. TOM WELLING KEEPS ME ALIVE"
then if ound out there was a season 9
so my life is complete again
4: 52pmShepleigh
...
im getting smallville 101
4: 52pmLucie
no
this is like
you learning abc's
i have not begun
to talk about smallville yet...
i can
4: 53pmShepleigh
......................................................
what when there is no season 10
4: 53pmLucie
there is a season 10
FUCK YEAH
smallville lasted a fucking DECADE
so everyone can SUCK it
who is like "smallville sux bawlz"
obviously, it does NOT
4: 53pmShepleigh
is there an 11?
......
LOL
4: 54pmLucie
there should be
tom welling has no career without smallville
he should just continue until he dies
that sounded morbid
4: 56pmShepleigh
yeah but
who wants to see an old wrinkley man saving lives
actually that'd be hilarious
xLUCIEEomfgzz: what beach were you at?
NY FISH 1992: somewhere in santa cruz
xLUCIEEomfgzz: LMFAO
xLUCIEEomfgzz: THIS
NY FISH 1992: never again
xLUCIEEomfgzz: just makes it SO much better
xLUCIEEomfgzz: we're going to the beach
NY FISH 1992: nope
xLUCIEEomfgzz: i won't knock you in the mouth
NY FISH 1992: never again
This is a list of goals I made while I was in...
I compile lists, because that’s what my personality is consisted of.
August 11 - September 19: 1. Do summer homework, of course. 2. Splurge at Borders … but don’t buy too many books. 3. Hang out with EVERYBODY before they leave for college. 4. Do yoga 2-3 times a week. 5. Go on walks after dinner. 6. Work 30 hours a week … and if not possible, at least 20. 7. Try to have a...
Top 8 most unhealthiest foods.
Mmmm, joy.
Good thing I only eat french fries out of this whole list. (:
1. Burgers 2. Bacon 3. French Fries and Potato Chips 4. Hot Dogs 5. Doughnuts 6. Margarine and butter 7. Sodas 8. Cookies and cakes
I am constantly reminded of what I’ve left behind. My dreams show me feelings I try so desperately to avoid.
I truly believe that beauty is everywhere, within the cracks of the wall to the painting displayed in the gallery. I believe beauty can be found in every thing, every person, and every place - it’s just beauty can be flaunted in various styles.
The walls around me feel so empty. I feel so empty without this room.
I love you, despite anything.
My mind wanders too much - to places where I have tried to repress for months.
CAPTUREfireflies: it’s like this crazy attachment that i can’t get away from. CAPTUREfireflies: i don’t want that CAPTUREfireflies: i want to fall in love. CAPTUREfireflies: i want you to have a great time in college. CAPTUREfireflies: i want us to meet. CAPTUREfireflies: i want everything to be different.
):
CAPTUREfireflies: i don’t wanna talk about myself too much.
This is why I adore her more than anyone.
CAPTUREfireflies: and he’ll leave CAPTUREfireflies: things in my car for me. CAPTUREfireflies: or buy me my favorite icecream when i say i’m craving it.
awh.
YOURE infinitee: like one day. YOURE infinitee: I made a heart with my hands. YOURE infinitee: and he grabbed my hand, because he wasnt paying attention. YOURE infinitee: and i was like. YOURE infinitee: O: YOU BROKE IT. YOURE infinitee: and i redid it. YOURE infinitee: and he took one of my hands again. YOURE infinitee: and put it to his heart. YOURE infinitee: then he took my other hand....
asdgajslkga.
This was so long ago, but I still remember it.
YOURE infinitee: Wanna hear something lame? xLUCIEEomfgzz: yes. YOURE infinitee: Everytime I turn off the lights. YOURE infinitee: I say something like. YOURE infinitee: I love you _____. YOURE infinitee: or. YOURE infinitee: I miss you _____. YOURE infinitee: or. YOURE infinitee: I hope you have sweet dreams _____. YOURE infinitee: I just...
aw.
YOURE infinitee: or like. YOURE infinitee: how you can. YOURE infinitee: be telling someone. YOURE infinitee: you love them. YOURE infinitee: and will never leave them. YOURE infinitee: and never hurt them. YOURE infinitee: and the next. YOURE infinitee: you don’t even talk. YOURE infinitee: you don’t even care.
Best friend conversations, as usual.
Me: I was thinking if worst came to worst, I'd just wear all my necklaces at once, and wear all my knit hats at once, and wear tights under my leggings under my pants and legwarmers over. Gives me more room in my suitcase :D
Katherine: And you will be very warm.
Me: I prefer cozy.
Katherine: Hahaha cozy is the more more politically correct term.
Me: And then I stretch my arms and there's a loud noise because I'll be wearing a thousand bracelets. Actually I have like 3, but just to make myself look a LITTLE bit more bizarre.
Katherine: lmao you will be quite a show when you get on campus. Everyone weill whisper how cool you are, because that would be so cool at sc.
Me: LMFAO I know. I'll set trendz. I'll even wear legwarmers on my arms to save space and hang like 6 belts....I can imagine myself now... . . .
Katherine: I am choking on the ravioli I just put in my mouth from laughing.
Me: LMAO YAYYYY!!!
Katherine: You want me to die from choking don't you! it's been your plan all along!
Me: I've been building up this plan for 6 years now. I'm so glad it's finally taking place.
Katherine: "Girl dies in Orinda, CA from choking on ravioli while texting bff Lucie Zhang"
There are so many people I want to be, there are so many lives I want to live, but I’m so limited.
I imagine what the world holds, and I aspire to be people I’ve never met. There are so many opportunities, each and every single day. I wonder how many pass right by me. I wonder why I’m so scared.
Thinking about that changes the way I view who I...
And who you are, too.
I cover up my footsteps and they are hidden once more. I am reborn and reinvented again. I abide in this world in new ways because of you.
Best friend.
kathasjkahjdyjk: we are going to go crazy when season 9 starts
kathasjkahjdyjk: i'm making rostein watch the first episode with us
kathasjkahjdyjk: fyi
xLUCIEEomfgzz: i know, i'm going to be happy once again
kathasjkahjdyjk: he is going to kill himself haahhaha
xLUCIEEomfgzz: LMFAO
xLUCIEEomfgzz: we're going to be crying
xLUCIEEomfgzz: he's like
xLUCIEEomfgzz: -wanders eyes-
kathasjkahjdyjk: and like jumping up and down
xLUCIEEomfgzz: -pretends to not notice girls crying their eyes out-
xLUCIEEomfgzz: -gets up to go to the bathroom to pass the time-
xLUCIEEomfgzz: LMFAO
kathasjkahjdyjk: HAHHAA
xLUCIEEomfgzz: we'll start shaking rostein
xLUCIEEomfgzz: "NOOOOOOOOOO CHLOE DONT DO IT"
kathasjkahjdyjk: i'm going to give him a sort of pre-game practice when i go down there
xLUCIEEomfgzz: LMFAO
xLUCIEEomfgzz: LFMAO
xLUCIEEomfgzz: LFMAOSHGKLSJDKLGSDJGLSDGKLSDJGLSJGLJDKLGJSDLg
xLUCIEEomfgzz: THAT WAS THE BEST THING YOU HAVE EVER SAID
xLUCIEEomfgzz: EVER
kathasjkahjdyjk: we'll be like crying all over him
xLUCIEEomfgzz: start bawling on him
xLUCIEEomfgzz: see how he reacts
kathasjkahjdyjk: he'll have to change his clothes because they will be soaked
kathasjkahjdyjk: then something happy will happen and we'll like run around breaking things
kathasjkahjdyjk: it will be the mostintense party/event he will have ever been to
xLUCIEEomfgzz: LMFAO
xLUCIEEomfgzz: rostein won't konw how to react
xLUCIEEomfgzz: he wont'
kathasjkahjdyjk: he'll probably like
kathasjkahjdyjk: start crying at the wrong moment
kathasjkahjdyjk: just because he has no idea what's going on
xLUCIEEomfgzz: LMFAO
kathasjkahjdyjk: like "I'M SO CONFUSED AND EVERYONE IS GOING CRAZY -SOB-"
kathasjkahjdyjk: he has no idea what he has gotten himself into by agreeing to watch smallville with me
xLUCIEEomfgzz: ROFL
kathasjkahjdyjk: he'll like...never associate himself with us again
kathasjkahjdyjk: ahahah
kathasjkahjdyjk: he'll see us walk down the street and like quickly turn the other direction
xLUCIEEomfgzz: LMFAO
xLUCIEEomfgzz: "ROSTEIN!!!!!"
xLUCIEEomfgzz: he starts running
kathasjkahjdyjk: "WE HAVE TO WATCH SMALLVILLE TOGETHER JUST LIKE OLD TIMES!!!"
Best friend.
Katherine: "I just am disturbed by the idea of stars dying in general. I can't even explain it. It's just something so . . . huge."
Me: "I know. And we don't even know about it because there's so many in the sky. It's kind of like waking up and the sky isn't there anymore."
"Yeah. Or like . . . knowing that a little piece of it isn't there anymore, and that little thing is so much bigger than anything you can imagine."
"Yeah, and it serves so much purpose that we don't even know about, but we just love them because they are so beautiful."
"Yes! It's just such a massive thing to think about and it's weird comprehending it all at once."
"That even when we look up to the sky, they won't live forever. And we won't know the difference because there are billions of stars out there. Up until you mentioned dying stars, I never really consciously think about it. I think about the sun, because it’s so substantial, and the fact that it won’t live forever scares me, even if I won’t be there to see it happen. It’s like a sense of security actually – knowing the stars are there everynight.”
"Yeah. And you just feel so insecure if you think that they aren't all there . . . that they are constantly dying and being reborn."
