[Shepleigh] k so my friend and i split a fifth of parot bay i drank all of my half… then we had 2 shots of tequila. i walk to the boys dorm to a party well at the party i had about 4 more shots and im GONE i am basically a whole new person… never been so drunk in my life…. and my friend is lighting his shots on FIRE and pouring alcohol on the table and setting it on fire
“Family is the people whose happiness and well being directly effect your own happiness and well being. They are the people who whenever you are with them, no matter where you are, you feel at home. I guess in a way we don’t really pick these people, we stumble upon them throughout life, but we do decide to let them become a part of who we are.”—Katherine
you won't understand this if you don't know carl jung's typology
"But that means its harder for N people. Because N people get S people, but S people don’t get N people. N people are just as capable of seeing the world simply through their senses, and many of them do because that way they can fit in and be normal like all of the S people. But Ns can go deeper than the surface. Ss can’t. I think most Ns feel misunderstood. We are always told to get our heads out of the clouds, and be decisive and clear about things, but that’s just how we are…and really thats the way the world is. Very few things are as clear as most of society makes them out to be. And when you see all of the possibilities, not just a couple of them, of course its hard to be decisive! Everyone expects us to know who we are and know what we want in life, but how can we do that when we know we are constantly changing, when our views on everything are constantly changing. We can understand that S people see things as black and white and that their views are concrete, but they not only can’t understand our gray areas, they can’t even see them."
“DSKGJDKGJLDSGG!!!! YES! KATHERINE STOP HAVING MY THOUGHTS. the thing about N people is that we are complicated, which is why that is the only personality aspect on carl jung’s typology that isn’t 50/50, and rather only 25% of the world are N’s. i think it’s beautiful to be complicated, because that means we are able to be simple. and S’s see that as something bothersome or tedious, because why fight with your mind when you can simply just accept how your mind works and how people are and how society works? because you are to challenge these aspects, and others, as well! that’s why N people are hard to understand, because they don’t live in the middle. they bounce between both ends of the spectrum, and for each N person, that spectrum is different. it could be feelings, life choices, opinions, thoughts, aspirations, desires, needs. and S people feel as if this is unnecessary, because the world is given to you in this way, and you should accept it for the way it is instead of trying to think in abstract terms. and that’s why S people aren’t able to understand N people, because they only see the world through their eyes, they’re unable to see through another person’s perspective and understand compared to N people. in N’s world, multiple views exist, and multiple possibilities exist, and they recognize this. S people just want to live simply and do so. and as N people, we understand that, and we envy it at times, but at the end of the day, we are satisfied with the complexity of our minds and our lives, because this is how we are able to resonate with others. i love S people though, because they give you a reality check and keep you grounded. if you’re surrounded by N people all the time, you veer to intangible places and find yourself always floating in possibilities rather than what is happening in the present. you just need a balance of both”
“you are the ONLY friend i have who i can tell something to, and you dont try to one up me. i hate thats how most women are. thats why its so hard for me to make close friends. i cant have conversations about life and other things without them changing the subject to them and blowing off what i just said.” "i’m glad you have me to talk to! i hope you know we are always going to be friends no matter the distance. i know i have said these words a lot, but i never say this to anyone else really. you are so special to me and i love talking to you, because we somehow end up laughing about something, and you’re the only person who i’m not bothered by it. if other people tried to make me laugh when i was upset or when we were having a philosophical discussion, i would just think they were trying to make me happy superficially, in the moment. but we just naturally make each other laugh for a second and then go back to a topic. and i love talking to you because you make my problems seem so insignificant. not because your problems are worse or because i’m comparing mine to yours, but talking to you makes me feel light and makes me feel like i don’t have problems, because i have you and that’s enough. i love you!"
you're too insecure, and you're too afraid to be yourself, and you're afraid of what others think of you, and you're so fixed on good impressions that you've lost who you are. you're too set on being an average human being that you could've been exceptional all along.
i just want to go back to new mexico and see who’s there. and i want to lay on the grass and look at stars and then go to the playground and swing as high as i can and jump and feel that pain in my ankle. i want to roam the empty streets at night with a best friend and i want to drive those empty streets until i’m in another town with no purpose but to waste gas. i want to get drunk and play with dogs and then dance in the middle of the road at 2am. i want to sing really loudly in public and race around the pond while boys are running after me trying to tickle me. i want to rock out to music that’s on the radio while babbling random noises because i don’t know the lyrics. i want to have sleepovers with best friends. i want to run and hide behind trees with a boy i like. i want to ditch class because i decided i wanted to get morning breakfast with friends in a city an hour away.
I JUST WANT TO RELIVE HIGH SCHOOL. BECAUSE HIGH SCHOOL WAS COOL FOR ME, OKAY?
“i kind of feel free without love, but it’s also gets kind of lonely. the idea of love always sounds good in my head. but then i start liking a person and my mind likes to veer into weird places, and i don’t like that. i get too anxious and become paranoid. i’m too caught up in the thought of not being good enough or people leaving me. i’m always optimistic about love until it actually approaches me.”—me
“I love him THAT much. but i feel like even if he didn’t love me the way i need him to, the only thing i want is for him to be happy, and for me to be happy. and if i cant have him completely, i wont be happy… so the heartbreak that might happen will be temporary, and ill get through it, and be patient. im not rushing anything and im just going to appreciate the fact that i get to feel love”—Shepleigh