I think part of me wanted to forget you, because I wanted to let go of my past completely and for some reason, I thought I had to leave you behind. For the longest time I was bad at missing people, I still am. But it doesn’t mean that I don’t love them with all that I have..and even more. I believe you can love people without having to miss them, because you just end up missing who you were with them.

But this isn’t about all of our friends. This is about you and this is about us. We had gone months without talking. I spent most of fall quarter not communicating with you. I wonder if things would have been easier if I had talked to you, to feel the lightheartedness and the teenagers we once were. Because although I have let go of everything of my past, you are in its own category. I wonder what life will be like now, now that we are talking more. It’s a new year, and we’re new people. We’re always new people every time we talk. We change so fast and we can’t even keep up with it enough to reflect on it. I only wish you were by my side sometimes to see how much I’ve grown, how different I am, but how I am the same when I am with you.

I think having you in my life will be good for me.

“I like that you still keep in touch with me.” I do too. :) How do you know me so well? How do I know you so well? How do we know each other so well for being so far away? Is that what real friendship means? I still ponder if I will ever meet someone who will care about me as much as I care about them. Is our friendship real? Should I even try and think about it? I won’t. Thank you for taking the time to remember me. You don’t know how much it touches my heart. You don’t know how happy I feel when I talk to you, how I just want to cry because talking to you is a luxury in itself. These last past few weeks have been so great, because of me, because of life, because of others, because of you, too. I hope our friendships lasts. I really do. I love you :)