“I have a brilliant idea. Bare with me are you ready”
“What’s your idea”
“You. Me. Vegas”
“LMAO OK WE WILL TAKE OVER. We would remake the hangover LOL WE WOULD BE STRIPPERS”
“SHEPLEIGH NO WE WOULD NOT WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT LMAO”
“It’s good money”
“You’re gonna be drunk as fuck, slipping off the stage, cracking your head open”
“If that brings in the big bucks then yes”

“I love the cherry blossoms!”
“Woah! You notice that? Most people don’t notice those small things! They bloomed last Wednesday!”
“Yeah! I love noticing little things about spring. It just looks more beautiful.”
“I love the smell of the cherry blossoms. It’s so subtle but most people don’t notice it”
“It makes me feel like I’m in a foreign country!”
“Like Japan or Taiwan!”
“Totally!”

“Oh I get it now. San Jose doesn’t have creative energy. It’s more industrial, keep-to-themselves kind of thing.”
“YES! Most people respond to me like I’m insane. I compliment people and ask questions all the time and they look at me like I’m on drugs. One time I was just about at my friend’s car to open his door when somebody, whose car was parked right next to his, got out of their car and I said hello and my friend thought I was insane for instigating that brief interaction.”
“When I first moved to Santa Cruz, I could tell people thought I was crazy too! They can’t handle my high energy and creative curiosity to learn about everything that surrounds me!”

“Well I just applied to 2 psychology-related jobs in the Bay Area but I’m really nervous they won’t even call me back!”
“Dude you’re so smart I don’t know why you should worry! Also you’re so personable”
“You think so?! I already imagined myself at the interview being like “I don’t know how I will contribute to your company, I just will” while twiddling my thumbs and being really anxious, because I know they’re going to ask me how I can be an asset to the team and what I can provide and I won’t have a concrete answer”
“I think they would hire you anyway because you just radiate good vibes!” <3 <3 <3

“Everything comes around. Everybody realizes things for themselves. Everybody learns.”
“NO WAY. That is my exact philosophy! I don’t believe anything is lost, and I believe life is a rubber band that never snaps! You may stretch further away from people but that doesn’t mean you guys won’t cross paths again. Like you and I! I saw your status on Facebook of you needing a ride to the airport and we reconnected after over half a year of not seeing each other. Nothing disappears. Everything already exists!”

“Were you a science major? You seem like you understand the science department at UC Santa Cruz really well.”
“I almost was a biology minor! And I just notice trends easily. It’s so competitive there. It’s all selfish - just revealing enough information so that you excel over others. Everybody uses others to gain knowledge to ace the exam but they don’t actually help others during study sessions. I think science majors are insane!”
“DUDE ME TOO. You know how they say art majors are insane, because they’re so far out there, but it’s like these science majors become obsessed! It’s all about science, nothing else”
“It’s like they become mind-controlled by their major! They stop taking care of themselves, they don’t even know night from day.”
“DUDE EXACTLY. That’s the thing about science majors, you gotta hold your mentality. You gotta be above the system in order to keep your sanity. You gotta just relax, take a step back, and just see that it’s just science and stop obsessing over everything”

“I couldn’t live in Santa Cruz after undergrad. I think it was perfect for undergrad and a nice place to visit but I feel like I would slump around there. Santa Cruz moves really slowly”
“No I totally get you. I need somewhere fast-paced”
“Yeah! Me too. And I feel like Santa Cruz is so accepting that you can just do whatever you want with your life, even if it means doing nothing. And I totally accept that, I’m not saying it’s a boring or shabby life, that’s just not my life. That’s the thing about Bay Area I feel. The ideal life is work form 9-6 and drink on the weekends. People in the Bay Area have this sort of peter pan complex where they never grow up. They’re slower to start their lives. But I’m so much more than that, I can’t be content doing that”
“No dude me too! I have to constantly be moving and learning and creating”
“That’s exactly how I am! Party on Friday, read a science book on Saturday!”
“Dude we totally get each other”

“When does your lease end?”
“Not until October! That’s because I moved during my last quarter”
“Oh yeah I totally remember!”
“Oh yeah it was when I bumped into you on the bus in September!”
“Dude that’s crazy I just had an image of us there!”

“Do you do art?”
“Yeah! I like to sketch and paint, but I need to get back into it! Do you? You seem like a person who has high creative flow”
“Heh I wish I don’t create art but I’m an avid art appreciator!”
“That’s what it’s all about! Appreciating art. What makes art good anyway?”
“Oh my god EXACTLY. Too many people are focused on what’s good versus bad and I question them”
“It’s just art!”

“I feel like we’re just like each other! You’re really mentally organized but your outer life is more scattered”
“Dude yes but everything always happens the way it should! If it doesn’t, then it’s just not meant to be. Like I didn’t have a ride to the airport so I was gonna bus it and cab it and then I remembered your offer which is why I texted you at 1am. Everything always has a way of working itself out, that’s why I don’t worry”

We’re intuitively connected <3 I think my interaction with her is about one of the most emotionally and intuitively filled conversations I’ve had in a while. The way she’s so balanced on art versus science astounds me. I love the way we interact like we’ve known each other for years. She asks me questions all the time, and we bounce topics without feeling like the last topic had abruptly ended. She insisted on paying for gas from the bus station to the airport and I said it was fine because it was only a 5-7 minute drive, so while we were at Starbucks, she bought my drink and wouldn’t take no for an answer. She’s a magical fairy :)

“I’m going to bed now”
“you’re gonna leave me to all this dismay. i get it”
“your life is in shambles well baby I got duct tape. sleep well pumpkin”
”i will, doughnut”
“Night crusty corn”
”undercooked meat… where are we going with this….”
”Nowhere good”

my best friend ♥

“i’m exhausted”
“me too, can you sing me lullabies”
“and brush your hair”
“and tuck me into bed”
“and scare the monsters away” 

“do you still like him?”
“yeah, and i always will.”
“so if at anytime he said he would be ready to be in a relationship with you, you’d say yes”
“without a doubt”

:)

“Windows 8 newest processor (intel i5/i7) 6+gb of ram, the best graphic card brands..NVIDIA and RADEON/AMD”
“What you have told me is beyond my understanding”
“Graphics cards and ram aren’t beyond your understanding”
“It’s just you speak like a computer and I don’t understand that because I speak like ~*~SHAKESPEARE~*~”
“Wow. This is why I want to become a computer scientist”
“This is why I want to become a writer”
“Boring”
“Programming is the definition of boring”
“YOU WOULDN’T EVEN BE TEXTING ME IF IT WASN’T FOR PROGRAMMING”
“But there is more to the world than technology. THERE IS LOVE!”
“Hmm..”

i win

“We’re going to play a game, okay?”
“Sure?”
“I’m going to ask you a question. If you raise your right hand, it means no. If you raise your left hand, it means yes.”
“Got it.”
“Do you like me?”

In response, he clasps his hands together, a gesture akin to the act of praying.

“What does that mean? That’s not part of the rules!”
“I didn’t say I was going to follow your guidebook.”

She stares at him pensively. He laughs.

the power of your own advice (i save everything)

“im depressed without maurice”
“but are you still happy?”
“i love him so much i would wait my whole life for him. but i know i cant. no im not happy”
“will you be happy soon?”
“idk ill either be happy getting back with him if he changes or i will be happy knowing things are 100% over but im in limbo with thie situation, so idk how to feel”
“you told me something once i’m going to show it to you”
“ok show me”
““I love him THAT much. but i feel like even if he didn’t love me the way i need him to, the only thing i want is for him to be happy, and for me to be happy. and if i cant have him completely, i wont be happy… so the heartbreak that might happen will be temporary, and ill get through it, and be patient. im not rushing anything and im just going to appreciate the fact that i get to feel love””
“shit why do you change my life in seconds LOL THANK YOU”

“I’m really exhausted I’m going to take a nap, I’ve been awake since 530”
“………….I’d never live, I don’t even know what the sky looks like at that time”

I love her so much it’s unbearable

Conversations with one of the best INFJs, EVER:

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January 30th, 2012:

“I think I’m too independent for love.”
“I think you are too.”
“I feel like I’m bad at falling in love, or staying in love. I used to be afraid of love. To an extent, I still am, but not too much. I just don’t really see it in my life. I’m too much of a wanderer. I can’t commit myself because I just can’t see myself doing that. I also thrive for perfection and most boys don’t really capture my interest.”

January 16th, 2013:

“Are you afraid of being alone?”
“No I’m not afraid of being alone, because I’m not alone. I am an independent person. I won’t ever settle for second best. It’s either I have true love or nothing at all. I don’t have time to try and make a relationship work because society tells me I should be dating. I have dreams to work on, I have self-growth to work on, people to meet, places to travel.”

Lane: The only reason anybody does anything is for money.
Me: Well, if you make enough money, money doesn’t matter.

And then we laughed. Real conversations I have with an 8 year old ENTJ boy. I love it :) 

“Oh you’re still in the area?”
“What do you mean I’m still in the area? I’m always in the area”
“I know but you’re always like on the moon, exploring”
“I’m not THAT busy, does it seem like I’m that busy?”
“Yes with your traveling and community service and reading”

^ seriously the best description of me 

And on that note, I really want to travel somewhere before I go to Tennessee in April because that just seems too far away. Someone suggest a place for me to go and meet me there. No really, I will do it. Trust me

(this one time in 8th grade, Shepleigh drew a fantastic egg)

“I love crafts and cooking! Let’s open a business”
“HECK YESSSS. What will we sell”
“Art, food, everything. I’ll do fashion design, you can interior decorate”
“LMAO I’LL PAINT AN EGG”
“Okay let’s become talented first LOL”
“Ok I already have the eggs down LOL”
“Great, because every American is gonna want a fucking fried egg painting mounted on their wall”
“It’s modern….It’s like modern Humpty Dumpty. Nostalgic to adults. Fun for children”